Nope. I haven't been around lately. Obviously, not for quite a while. Sometimes I get lost in this world. Lost in the chaos of everyday life. I don't know if I've mentioned this, but I'm having a house built and, Oh what at chore! I never realized until I was 100 percent into the experience, that it would take so much of my attention......and drain me of so much energy! I'm a pretty simple person. Building a house is NOT a simple experience. There are lots of decisions to make, lots of trips to the local hardware store, lots of budgeting and lots of expense! I never expected to go over budget. I guess that was either wishful thinking on my part or just plain ignorance. But it's taken a lot of effort on my part to push past the overwhelming stress (my own fault....hey, I'm human!) to look at the bright side of this whole experience and see that, when it's all said and done, and even though I'll be penniless, I'll have a brand new home of my own. I am blessed. I know this. Especially with what's going on in our country today. I have a job, a roof over my head (well, my mom's roof until my house is done, but a roof nonetheless), food to fill my belly and clothes to keep me warm. I have the best son a mother could ask for, family that loves me and has helped me through the worst of times, and more friends than I've ever had or could ever wish for. I am a bit upset with myself for letting so much get to me. I enjoy peace and, if you've read my past posts, try to focus on inspiration and positive thinking. I guess since the house building is coming to an end very soon, and I recently realized that some things are totally out of my control, I've come back to my senses again, or the true me (who I choose to and work hard to be). My eyes have again focused on the beauty of the skies in the morning and evening and the calmness that nature has to offer. It's there every day. There should really be no effort to see it, but it's amazing how life has a way of diverting your attention away from it. So, I am officially apologizing to myself, my family and any other person that had been affected by what I would call "losing my SELF". That said, I will be back again.....

"Invest your energy in the positive present moment"..........lesson learned =)